Thursday, April 8, 2010

My One-Day-Love


he meets you in a social network
he tell you he wants to know you
sure, you say, but dont give me the "i love you" crap.
"Of course", he says "i dont believe in it either"

so you meet up, talk and catch a movie.
he holds your hand, kisses you and hugs
and its time to go home.

thats the last he speaks to you.
your hero goes MIA.
you ask him whats this shit about
"you're not my type" he says

and then you sit and cry
you cry not because some jerk used you like tissue
you cry because you failed to shield yourself
though you already knew love's a lie

you still cry
cos you cant believe its so easy to tear you down
you cry
because you cant believe you're THIS vulnerable
you cry
because you dont know if love's really a lie

if love was a lie,
you shouldnt have felt hurt
if love was a lie,
you should be able to throw it aside

love is a plague
it comes when you dont want it to
it'll let you down
when you start to believe it
it'll curse you
when you need it most

dont get trapped.
dont fall in love
there's no prince charming
you must charm yourselves.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Oct 09

She looked into the doorway
At the desert that was his soul
It had been made barren
His heart was made of coal

Although he was so charming
His smile was not true
His presence was disarming
Though his heart was black and blue

She brought him the breath of fire
To light his heart of coal
She sought to take him higher
But she could not save his soul

By words and charm
He drew the moth to the flame
With intent to harm
Yet cast off any blame

“I’ve hurt so many women”
He said with a laugh
“I probably don’t deserve a girlfriend
She stared at him aghast

She watched as her dreams lay scattered
By this man with no soul
No more would she try to save
A man with a heart of coal

Lies and manipulation
Now filled this empty nest
Denial covered up the truth
And now was laid to rest

This fire has now burned cold
And may be lit no more
Unless of course the day would come
When fate would settle the score

The dance of fools goes round and round
As day turns into night
He bends her mind with his lies
She cries to his delight

A psychopath has no remorse
For the hurt that he has caused
Broken hearts and shattered dreams
Are all someone else’s loss







Cunning and charm, callous and cold’
Will take what he can get
He’ll steal your heart, your money, your dreams
All to fulfill a bet

You’ll never know if he loved you so
Because his words are used to steal
You’ll want to believe and be deceived
Because he knew how to make you feel

Who is this man that destroyed my life?
A shipwreck is what he left
Yet he is fine, he’s moved on
While I am left bereft

There will come a day when he will pay
Ten fold for what he’s done
That heart of coal won’t be so bold
For he’ll be the broken one









I heard all that you said
I listened to all you didn’t say
For absolutely nothing, without any reason
I kept weaving dreams

My world was so dark
And I was all alone, rugged
You stepped in and for no reason,
And I kept weaving dreams

Casted upon us, eventually
The phantom’s evil eye
I kept walking away from my love and so did you
But I kept weaving dreams

The pain is more than before
So I made a promise to myself
That the silent eyes should remain dumb
But my dreams, I kept weaving

Now when I speak my lips quiver
I cannot say the secret of my heart out loud
I’m still in the journey but you’re not with me
Still, I kept weaving dreams

I kept drifting away yet drawing close
The smoke of yesterday keeps troubling my eyes
Your situation is not like mine, you know not
So I just kept weaving dreams

Why are we settling for a world we left before?
The past keeps paining my heart
The memories have become aggressive and torturous
As for my dreams, I kept weaving

What you didn’t say, I kept listening
Don’t know whose evil eye casted on us
There’s no place left for me
I threw my dreams into the fire in your eyes
They’re ashes now but my woven dreams haunt me.
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You are my paradise, you are my craving
You are what I pray for, you bring my soul peace
You are my pulse and you are the beats of my heart
I don’t know anything else but all I know is this:
I see God in you, oh my love, what should I do?

What kind of distance is this?
What kind of helplessness im cursed with?
Sometimes your scent, sometimes your words
I don’t know anything else but all I know is this:
I see God in you, oh my love, what should I do?

Maybe we’re a couple united in heavens
Maybe im just blessed to merely see you
But this itself is enough to last a lifetime
I don’t know anything else but all I know is this:
I see God in you, oh my love, what should I do?

Wake me from this dream, clear away the illusions
Tell me that you’re mine for real
I’ll bear all the burdens and take all the pain
I don’t know anything else but all I know is this:
I see God in you, oh my love, what should I do?

I may not be worthy of you, I may not be fit for you
But your shadows ask me to keep following
Please don’t let me remain behind
I don’t know anything else but all I know is this:
I see God in you, oh my love, what should I do?

She has the love of her family.
She has the love of her friends.
She has all the love she could ever want,
Yet she is still alone,

Shut off from the world.
Isolated in a ball of fear.
She's scared to face a new day,
scared a new day will never come.

She faces these fears alone,
she has shut herself off from the world.
Her sadness has killed her.
It has killed her relations outside of the ball.
She has all the love from her friends and family.
Yet she is still alone...









She’s left in the middle of the room,
beaten and broken,
She crys out in the night,
no one around, to say its alright,
She’s bleeding from unknown places,
She passes out in the bloody mess,
her husband gone, never to return,
She lays there slowly bleeding out,
the baby inside her, no longer alive,
Her husband killed her and left a bloody mess,
with tears and blood stained to her face,
She gave her life,
for her husbands bloody mess
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By the time you swear you're his,
Shivering and sighing,
And he vows his passion is
Infinite, undying ---
Lady, make a note of this:
One of you is lying










Oh withered flower, my beloved flower,
Till yesterday you were fully blossomed
You stood at the cliff on your single feet
You stood through the golden sun’s burns
You stood through the rain that tried to push you down
Why do you bear it all for a few days’ life?

The sun does burn me, love
The rain does drench me,
The height scares me
And loneliness haunts me, oh my love
But I’ll bear withering and even more for you
And I’ll hold my last breath till my eyes see you coming in the distance.








Sweetheart, I’m sorry and I’m just so very sorry
Because I never saw the cry in your laughs;
Nor the tears behind the shine in your eyes;
I didn’t see the pain, nor did I felt your burden.

Alone you stood in the crowd,
Inside the heart of the broken so helpless,
Seeking for a refuge where you can find a fortress
I’m here now to embrace you like the morning sun

I wish I could rearrange the episodes and perfect it for you
I wish I could show you a world so bright, so colourful,
A world where God’s creations are dedicated to you
Why were you not born with me, I’d have shielded you, I swear.

You cried day and night, unable to find the never-existing justice
As little as you were, always given the heaviest of burdens you couldn’t bear
Along the way you cried, passer-bys pitied but couldn’t spare
But you and me, baby, we’ll see tomorrow together.

Don’t listen to them, what do they know?
Where were they when you cried out?
Who came for you when you begged to be let off?
Who heard your screams, love, who cared?

Shards of glass fell from the sky as you sat alone and cried
Left you broken on the floor as you always had been
I’ll not watch you drift away from me, watching your heart beat its last..
I’ll rescue you from this evil world you’re trapped in.

I’ll show you love, dear, I’ll show you a better world
Where you’re respected and valued and you aren’t accountable for someone’s sins
I’ll be the bird that sings in your stormy nights, I’ll be your sunshine after the rain
I’ll rescue you, baby, I’ll take you with me. Take my word.

Monday, August 17, 2009

my internet lover.

I never dreamed that such a man existed,
Much less that he would feel the same for me.
And so this towering wave I've not resisted,
Allowing it to sweep me out to sea.
How strange to meet as words flashed on a screen!
Soul-to-soul: no sight or sound or touch.
How strange on such a phantom friend to lean
When the pain of breaking up became too much.
Yet stranger still when love and even passion
Borne by words alone swept up my shore:
Real love, with all the power to refashion
Life in its unending urge for more.
The Web has given us this special grace:
That love might break the bonds of time and space.

Friday, August 7, 2009

and the beast will come




the beast will come and i cannot run
my tear is his smile and my fear is his fun
people wait anxiously to see me being ripped apart
he can do anything to me, since he has no heart.

maybe he has a heart, i do not know
his brain is shallow and his morale so low
he will take his time but he will catch me
i can stay or run, but i must set myself free

i wont resist him, nor will i obey him
to the audience, im his wife, it may seem
i must taste his torture, and i must play his games
these are the simple things i have as my aims

the heroine in me will rise
the day she knows its no longer nice
to be in the hands of a beast with a heart of ice
but this is what it takes for audience to be enticed

it gives them pleasure to see me in such a way
to be at the beast's feet as if he's made my day
i'll do what each of them wants - the beast, the audience and the well-wishers
my silent death will be their ultimate thirst quencher.

Friday, July 3, 2009

hush little one..

Hush, little sister
Please don't cry
I wish I could be there
To sing you a lullaby

I can see your arms
Bloodied and bruised
That's strange, little sister
Mine were like that too

I know you scream
When Daddy's there
Hush, little sister
I know you're scared

I can see the way
He's hurting you
I'm sorry, little sister
He did that to me too

I know that people
Ignore what's going on at home
That makes me angry, little sister
You shouldn't have to be alone

Hey, little sister
You wanna know why I'm not there?
It's a sad story, little sister
But people should care

You see, little sister
One day Daddy got high
You were asleep in your crib
So you didn't hear my cry

He screamed at me
And smashed my head against the door
While you slept, little sister
I died on the floor

You know, little sister
I don't think that I would have died
If someone had only bothered
To listen to my cries

But hush, little sister
Daddy's coming home
Quick, get into bed
You don't want him to find you alone

I'm sorry little sister
He's in a bad mood
Run while you can

Uh oh little sister
He's lifting his belt
Scream while you can, little sister
Call for help

Hush little sister
You don't need to cry
No one can hurt you
You're in my arms tonight.

revival

i revived you for a reason. cos i cannot take it anymore. i need you. i dared to open you up again... and then there's ur cousin... whom i'll never dare to open. but stay with me. cos i just need you.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

roar #Final

Your life dreams were shattered,
When you’re 6 feet under.
We've cried here for hours,
And the hours turn to days.

I know you regret leaving us here,
With poor trips and memories we held so near.
When I hear your name it’s not the same,
Not matter what they say,
it's not okay.

It seems just yesterday,
we were the same,
It’s been months since you left us,
Noting has been the same.

There are question without answers,
That lingers inside everyone’s mind.
You were such a great description,
Of a favorite picture man.

You get well with other people,
And they say the same for you.
They say they are sorry,
But what are they sorry for.

How can they possibly know what I'm going through,
I can barely deal with all the pain I'm feeling right now.
Just a couple of months ago everything was fine,
What happened to cause so much pain?

What was god thinking when he took you away.
It's been months since i last saw you,
I miss you each and every minute now.
I know you are in a better place,
Just save a space for me when i meet you again


who will i share this with...who will i tell... what will i do... cos our promises still stand true.. i owe you 4 lunches, and i owe u 0.50cents for each of the countless times i was late.. how will i give these all back to you? and your letters... they haunt me now. i didnt tell you. and i didnt share with you this life which i thought was mine and only mine. now i regret, but what for. you wont come back, will you? did u ever ever think how everyone u left behind would feel? did you even contemplate this before you did what u actually did?? cos if you had thought, you wouldnt have done this.