roar #31

okay so this is it. i finally HAVE to blog this.
i tried covering with the poems, it just doesnt work.

i dont get it. i just got to know you for barely a year... how did i get so feakingly attached to you?? now that there is no "WE" i feel incomplete. now ive lost my direction, ive lost my way...

i want to call you; i want to message you.... i just want to write to you again, like how we used to pass the girlish notes of 'i love you' to each other.
but i cant do any of these, cos our eyes have laid the rules. we dont look at each other anymore although we stand right before each other... its just a thinking that as long as we dont look into each other's eyes, we are non-existant to each. how sad, how pathetic.

ive lost you. i've lost myself.
how could i ever lose you? you were right by my side all along. and i thought we got through tougher times together. all it took was an intruder to seperate us, to bring us devastation. yes, im devastated without you... cant you see?

maybe this is how its meant to be. im fated to be kissed by an angel, only for a fraction of my life. and the rest i will spend in sorrow and loneliness...

you're the most beautiful girl ive ever known... stay blessed, wherever you are.

yours truly,
Rina