roar #33

If these walls could talk,
you'd know my body is dead,
my mind has been taken over,
that's why I am so scared,
I can't control it,
anger is making me blind,
I've been left here on my own
chained to a hate of some kind.
If these walls could talk.

If these walls could talk,
you'd know about my fears,
about all those nights I screamed for help,
about all my fallen tears.
You'd know about the demons
haunting me at night,
you'd be able to help me
keep my fire alight,
if these walls could talk.

If these walls could talk
they would say that it's all right,
God sends His angels
to look over me at night.
They'd encourage me,
say though I am alone
it doesn't mean I‘m on my own.
He watches me, from above
and showers me with all His love,
if only these walls could talk.

roar #32

She is alone.
Her heart cries out
Yet no one hears.
Throughout her existence,
In which she has grown,
She has shed countless tears
For those she has loved.
She falls in love many times,
But everyone seems to ignore.
The thundering silence
And lonely days are gone
Once she enters the door
Of adulthood.
Locked in a chamber
And love holds the only key.
For this lonely one
This only one
Just happens to be me.

roar #31

okay so this is it. i finally HAVE to blog this.
i tried covering with the poems, it just doesnt work.

i dont get it. i just got to know you for barely a year... how did i get so feakingly attached to you?? now that there is no "WE" i feel incomplete. now ive lost my direction, ive lost my way...

i want to call you; i want to message you.... i just want to write to you again, like how we used to pass the girlish notes of 'i love you' to each other.
but i cant do any of these, cos our eyes have laid the rules. we dont look at each other anymore although we stand right before each other... its just a thinking that as long as we dont look into each other's eyes, we are non-existant to each. how sad, how pathetic.

ive lost you. i've lost myself.
how could i ever lose you? you were right by my side all along. and i thought we got through tougher times together. all it took was an intruder to seperate us, to bring us devastation. yes, im devastated without you... cant you see?

maybe this is how its meant to be. im fated to be kissed by an angel, only for a fraction of my life. and the rest i will spend in sorrow and loneliness...

you're the most beautiful girl ive ever known... stay blessed, wherever you are.

yours truly,
Rina

roar #30

Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl

It feeds on loneliness and creates a void

Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture

A teenager is stricken and destroyed



There is no sound of laughter or happiness here

The little one has thrown in the towel today

Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul

It is futile to hope and dream and pray



Emptiness builds a home in this woman

In this girl, this child where hollows have bred

A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes

And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,

Leaving nothing considered worthy remains

Destined to walk through life less ordinary

Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

roar #29

Solitude

Sitting in my room alone

Wrapped warmly in a quilt

Cold wind blowing outside my window

Feeling not a pang of guilt



For needing solitude

There is a certain feel of comfort

With a loved one so close by

But that feeling is not near enough



When unable to see eye to eye

And needing solitude

Our dreams were quickly shattered

Hopes of a future are no more



Time we spent mere memories

Grieving felt to the very core

And needing solitude

Solitude for peace of mind



Time alone to heal

We lost so much in so little time

But our friendship remains strong & real

Now & in our solitude.

roar #28

A tiny life is growing

Inside a cosy place

His arms and legs are flailing

A smile is on his face.

His mother feels a tiny kick

Upon her rounded tummy

And waits impatiently for the day

When she becomes a Mummy.

The baby’s smile is fading

But his eyes are open wide

He knows that he’ll be leaving soon

But will never see outside.

There aren’t so many kicks now

In fact there’s none at all

Gran says that baby’s sleeping

And keeps knitting up his shawl.

His life is draining quickly

But no-one knows a thing

A tiny smile fleets his face

When he hears his Mother sing.

He knows that he’ll remember her

And the things he heard her say

Peacefully and happily

The baby drifts away.

Mummy knows that something’s wrong

And is at the clinic before too long

A scan is done and Doctor says

“I’m sorry, baby’s gone”.

The grief is overwhelming

The sadness takes its toll

Friends and family gather round

As he’s buried in his shawl.

As time goes by and lapses on

His Mother sheds a tear

And hears these words inside her head

“Mum I’m always here,

I’ll never ever leave you

Although you may not know

I’ll be beside you every day

Through laughter, joy and woe.

You’ll never need to miss me

For I am in your heart

And though we’re in two different worlds

We’ll never be apart”.

roar #27

i believe in love letters and red roses
but i dont believe in us touching noses
i believe in those cheesy lines from those hollywood flicks
but i dont believe in us stealing kisses on the cheeks

i believe in things such as rules of engagement
but i dont believe in us building firm attachment
i believe in the pair of Mickey and Minnie mouse
but i dont belive in you being my spouse

i believe in sweethearts running on the shore
but i dont believe in us cuddling on the floor
i believe in blind dates and chemistry
but i dont believe in going out with you on the 14th of february

i believe in teddy bears and lipstick stains on the collar
but i dont believe in our relationship would go as far
i believe in carving names on the backyard tree
but i dont believe in the future of you and me

coz we once allowed ourselves to hold on and try
but you lose your grip easily and always turn out to goodbye
all those candy-coated things that love has
perhaps will never be applicable to us

i do have faith on paraphernalias of affection
just like i do have faith on divine intervention
i believe in forever and heartaches too
coz i believe in love but i dont believe in loving you

roar #26

It Won't Be Long

You said before you died,
that I was the key to your heart.
But the truth is
you were the key to mine.

I ask the Lord above,
to answer my prayers.
That you would come back.
But, that wouldn't be fair.

I now know that
you're happy where you are.
Safe in the arms of God,
without any cares.

But I want you to know,
that I still love you so.
And I'll go on living for Him,
Knowing that His light will never dim.

Someday together we'll be,
But, until then,
the Lord will take care of me.

So, keep on watching, It won't be long.
That from this world, I'll be gone.
Into your arms once again,
Safe from all the worldly harm.

roar #25

Have You ever loved someone
But knew they didn't care?
Have You ever felt like crying
But Knew you'd get no where?

Have you ever looked into their eyes
And said a little prayer?
Have you ever looked into their hearts
And wished that you were there?

Have you ever felt their heartbeat,
When the lights were turned down low?
Have you ever whispered "God, I love You"
But you'll never let me show?

Love is grand, yet it hurts so much.
The price you pay is high.
If I could choose between Love and Death,
I'd rather choose to die.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
It doesn't pay a dime.
It only causes broken hearts,
Yet it happens all the time.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
You'll get hurt before it's through.
I ought to know, my friend -
I fell in love with you.

roar #24

Letting Go

How do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friend;
Can you reroute the course you have taken
And start over once again?

I don't really want to let you go
But inside me I know I must;
The times we've loved . . . the times you've left
My heart says stay . . . but it's my mind I must trust.

We have shared so much together
Laughter . . . fun times . . . tears;
Yet sometimes we can't turn back time
We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

I know one day you will be happy
And your soulmate you will find;
I know we each have one out there
Even if for now . . . only in our minds.

May life be gentle with you
May God's best come your way;
And on some quiet tomorrow
You will realize things were better this way

roar #23

Dance, My Little Puppets

dance, my little puppets

dance for me

dance, my little puppets

and you shall see

dance, my little puppets

the truth you seek

dance, my little puppets

the truth i will speak

dance, my little puppets

set your soul free

dance, my little puppets

dance for me

dance, my little puppets

the truth you find

dance, my little puppets

do not hide

dance, my little puppets

dance for me

dance, my little puppets

truth is a lie, cant you see

dance, my little puppets

dance for me

dance, my little puppets

dance to see

dance, my little puppets

start to begin

dance, my little puppets

this is the end

;)

roar #22

shutting off

I shut off all emotion

can't let myself feel the pain

How can this not be a dream

when it all feels so surreal?

Can’t let anyone know what’s going on

Just stand here when I feel like there’s so much I have to say

Now my world fades to a shade of grey

Everything around me is part of my living nightmare

I strive to be understood

But I can’t seem to say a word

And I promise you I won’t look down and cry

I’ll tell everyone I'm okay

I have nothing to do in this world

But I won’t slow down

Even when my whole body is numb from all this pain

Despair settles upon me

and leaves its mark, hold up all this inside stuff

and I will stay in the dark.

I’ll smile to the world

act like it's all ok.

I’ll keep on fighting, through another meaningless day

With no real point

And i promised you that the end is near

You walked away

And im convinced that you are scared of the truth

Your walking around in denial

You did not even attempt to help me

Maybe when i do die you’ll see what you did

Maybe you’ll finally care about me

But then it will be much too late

roar #21

Tears roll down my cheeks
And my eyes start to swell
I think about you all the time
Your smile, your laugh, your smell
You were my best friend
Who knew me inside out
I can't understand it at all
What this break up is all about
I thought I meant something to you
Because you meant the world to me
Now I see it was not for real
How could you cheat me?
You will never know the pain you caused
Because you are not here to feel it all
I just cannot forgive you because
You caused my tears to fall.

roar #20

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are
You leave me breathless

You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

;)

roar #20

you thought you knew me inside out

you thought we were the best of friends

and you thought that we were so close..

these are your perceptions

and i hold no responsibilty nor obligation

to grant you your desired vision of us as best friends.

thats because i never once agreed with you

that we're best freinds.

just because you keep telling everyone so

doesnt make it true.

you didnt ask me.

so, why arent we best friends?

why do i treat you with ignorance

and sideline you

all of a sudden?

why do you feel afraid to seek me at times?

thats because deep down i love you,

but slightly after that, i couldnt tolerate

your little little ineffectiveness

i find you incompetent

you dragged me down with you

you wasted my time and resources

you relied on me to provide you almost everyhting

while you laugh and play all day long,

joking ABOUT me..

you see, i never fought with you

that doesnt indicate my limitless love for you

i was waiting, hoping that

you'd learn my style by noticing me.

you disappointed me..

to describe you,

in my eyes,

you are mediocre as compared to me,

you are totally oblivious to the world around you,

you are ruthless in the things you do,

you are obstructive to me reaching my goals,

and you are totally noob.

if you add it all up,

you should find that the word im deriving at

is MORON and thats you.

im being mean? yeah its meant to hurt you.

for all that you did to me.

im sorry Girl..

you asked for it.

dont ask for things

that are gone,

dont wish for things

that wont happen

dont try to piece back

whats broken

and dont try to undo

when it just wont work...

roar #19

She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete Angel


Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

roar #18

I see you all the time
Never see you smile
I try to picture what's going on in your mind
He leaves you every night by yourself
He took your love and put it on the shelf
He doesn't really care how you feel...
You should be moving on girl what's the deal?
I wana see you out that door...
cuz girl you know your worth much more

So baby tell me why
you stick around
Always lonely and you only wear a frown
He don't treat you good and you know
The only thing left is for you to go

You shouldn't live a lie with someone
When deep inside you know he ain't the one
I don't know what to say no more
I wana see you out that door

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know that it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind

Girl I understand
That you're scared
And you feel that you might never love again
But baby that ain't true
No no no
I know that there someone there for you
Someone that will see
That you are worth
An undiscovered treasure on this earth
Girl you know your worth so much more
Wana see you out that door

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know its time to move on

roar #17

lai lai lai lai lailailai, lahi lahi lahi lai
its in the East that the Sun always rises

the season of the burning sun
the season of merciless winter
does there exist a bridge between them?

during the seson of autumn,
when the smell of earth rises,
is the season of the first rain,
my heart tells me..

why were the two lightnings seperate till yesterday?
is it to bind very tightly together from today onwards?

lai lai lai lai lailailai, lahi lahi lahi lai

the suns always rise in the East..

during times of fury,
the skies are full of clouds
and i cannot see my moon

when the anger dies off,
the skies are cloud-less
now i can see my full moon

there are no enemies from now,
there are no roots which dislike the flowers
no heat that wins the river...
this is a story of the success of a small fire
on the surface of water
there is no need for cover anymore

its always in the East that suns rise..
lai lai lai lai lailailai, lahi lahi lahi lai

when there's someone at my door,
and when i hear them knock,
i always hope its you, my dear

when there is a group of ladies,
my eyes search immediately
for where you are

let our hands unite in poetry
let time be our wings to fly
its time to lean on the moon's back

though there's no real need,
my mouth begs you for favours
can i bear it
if you refuse?

its always in the East where suns rise

why were the lightnings seperate till yesterday?
is it to unite from today?

roar #16

it's you, it's you,
i see myself in you
you're the heat of my heart

you're my mum
you're my dad
you're my friend who sings me lullabyes

you're the heat of April - May
you're the rain of June - July
I like you

you're the showers of September
you're the winds of October
I thank you

when a mum like you is around,
what else do i need in life to succeed?

when tears form in my eyes
when there's burden in my heart,
i'll lean on to your shoulders

you dont approve of my tears
and you say your child never wilts
everytime im down

no matter how many births i take,
i'll always want to be your child
im your house pet
the pet that you love the most

even though im so old in age,
i'll always want your lap to play

you watered my roots,
you watered me with your tears
my garden bloomed

i'll be your kid who says your name,
i'll be your kid who always wins
now you can lean on me

all along ive been a crescent
and now you've made into a full moon
youre the Ganges River that never dries,
you're the Mother Earth that does not wear off
may you always be like this

i'll always have a new beginning with you
you're always the direction of my rising sun

roar #15

WALKING AWAY AS ANGELS

We laid back and let it all flow out
the topic of trust never once had a doubt,
for within my mind and heart as well
was an image and vibe as clear as a bell.
You were very special to me and more
I had a feeling inside I never felt before.
A trust so great and strong
I wanted this trust to take away all the wrong
and return to me a mended soul.
My mended soul would then release a new angel beside the other one
and together we would stroll the heavens,
our times are over and done.
For we have then won the battle within
and now we rest for created we have a personality twin,
Think alike, talk alike, say the same thing.

It is time we are to ascend
or we have reached the territory of a best friend.

But friendships break even the best of ones
then all me have established becomes undone.
Your job as my angel is then complete
because you have left me with only my pen and sheet.
I am now forced to record what I feel to something unlike you and I,
it's not real.
I'm talking to myself, every single word
I write to paper but what I'm saying goes left unheard.

All this because of you my angel, you are no longer beside me
though I beg and plea
our friendship just wasn't meant to be.

But do not worry my pen is okay
For within my heart our memories will always stay,
Forever...
because a part of you will be with me always, to forget you
Never...

roar #14

Loneliness is darkness
A never-ending night.
Even though the black won’t go away,
You’ll never fall asleep.

Because loneliness sparks a fear
And unlike other nightmares
Awakening will not vanish it;
For the darkness is too strong

To allow any rest.
It makes memories into ghosts
And dreams into spirits.
Too vague to remember
Too important to forget.

roar #13

As examinations are coming near,

Our minds are trembling with fear,

We start thinking as to why,

Didn't we study throughout the year.

In June our year starts,

We refresh our little hearts,

As July and August pass,

We study for time-pass,

In September-October flowers bloom,

We pass our time sleeping in the room,

November and December bring cold,

The books become too heavy to hold.

January and February are bright and pleasant,

We keep ourselves busy in enjoyment,

But as March comes marching,

We panic and for our books we start searching,

So as exams come near,

We start worrying with fear.

may be true for some, but definitely NOT for me and my angels. we mug all day through the joy and pain and for those who know us, we have a LIFE.. so all ma people, all the best for exams and hope the above poem doesnt describe you.

regards,

Rina

roar #12

The Forever Friend
by Artur Hawkwing

On my own, but mostly the savannah,

Where the tumbleweeds

fade away and die,

Before the glassy sun

burns a summer of crystals,

The glistering waters of the high seas

Of which was so far a place

as of where vultures roam.

I looked around

but you weren't anywhere...

You used to say that you would never die,

But I took the wrong meaning into my heart.

Now the sea is wild with despair,

Deep blue like a prairie of flowers blue,

Where all children of God rest in eternal peace.

I saw you at the end,

You and I, brother and sister of nature,

Brother and sister of heaven and earth,

Your usually calm and heavenly eyes full of tears,

Bitterly falling one after one into a river,

Then the river of life turned red in blood.

My eyes watched in horror.

Slowly and deadly

your heart became poisoned,

You disappeared

without saying good-bye,

Not a word came

out of your mouth.

You became like

desolation in its grave.

When once the

skies were a realm of stars

And the sun shone brightly in summer skies,

You were there to share the calmness;

But now I stand here in midst of the tall grass

And only the savannah remains.

roar #11

On Christmas Eve, a young boy with light in his eyes,

Looked deep into Santa's, to Santa's surprise,

And said as he nestled on Santa's broad knee,

"I want your secret. Tell it to me."

He leaned up and whispered in Santa's good ear,

"How do you do it, year after year?"

I want to know how, as you travel about,

Giving gifts here and there, you never run out.

How is it, dear Santa, that in your pack of toys

You have plenty for all of the world's girls and boys?

From rooftop to rooftop,

to homes large and small,

From nation to nation, reaching them all?"

And Santa smiled kindly and said to the boy,

"Don't ask me hard questions. Don't you want a toy?"

But the child shook his head, and Santa could see

That he needed the answer.

"Now listen to me,"

He told the small boy with the light in his eyes,

"My secret will make you sadder, and wise.

"The truth is that my sack is magic. Inside

It holds millions of toys for my Christmas Eve ride.

But although I do visit each girl and each boy

I don't always leave them a gaily wrapped toy.

Some homes are hungry, some homes are sad,

Some homes are desperate, some homes are bad.

Some homes are broken, and children there grieve.

Those homes I visit, but what should I leave?

My sleigh is filled with the happiest stuff,

But for homes where despair lives, toys aren't enough.

So I tiptoe in, kiss each girl and boy,

And pray with them that they'll be given the joy

Of the sprit of Christmas,

the spirit that lives

In the heart of the dear child who gets not, but gives.

If only God hears me and answers my prayer,

When I visit next year, what I will find there

Are homes filled with peace, and with giving, and love

And boys and girls gifted with light from above.

It's a very hard task, my smart little brother,

To give toys to some and to give prayers to others.

But the prayers are the best gifts, the best gifts indeed.

For God has a way of meeting each need.

"That's part of the answer. The rest, my dear youth,

Is that my sack is magic. And that is the truth.

In my sack I carry on Christmas Eve day

More love than a Santa could ever give away.

The sack never empties of love, or of joys'

Cause inside it are prayers, and hopes.

Not just toys.

The more that I give, the fuller it seems,

Because giving is my way of fulfilling dreams."

And do you know something? You've got a sack, too.

It's as magic as mine, and it's inside of you.

It never gets empty, it's full from the start.

It's the center of lights, and of love. It's your heart.

And if on this Christmas you want to help me,

Don't be so concerned with the gifts 'neath your tree.

Open that sack called your heart, and shareYour joy,

your friendship, your wealth, your care.

"The light in the small boy's eyes was glowing.

"Thanks for the secret. I've got to be going."

"Wait, little boy," Said Santa, "don't go.

Will you share? Will you help?

Will you use what you know?"

And just for a moment the small boy stood still,

Touched his heart with his small hand and whispered

"I will"

roar #10

There is only one thing
about which I shall have no regrets
when my life ends.

I have savoured
to the full all the small, daily joys.
The bright sunshine
on the breakfast table;
the smell of the air at dusk;
the sound of the clock ticking;
the light rains that start gently after midnight;
the hour when the family come home;
Sunday evening tea before the fire!

I have never missed one moment of beauty,
not ever taken it for granted.
Spring, summer, autumn, or winter.
I wish I had failed as little in other ways.

roar #9

I get a funny feeling,

it comes from deep inside.

I get all mad and angry,

wanting to go and hide.

My doctor calls it depression,

my dad says it's just me.

But the thoughts and feelings,

no one will ever be able to see.

Some say I'm psycho,

some say I'm just weird.

It's like I'm a different person,

and the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,

I want to commit suicide real bad.

Then I get a headache,

followed by feeling sad.

I wish I could get help,

I wish it would go away.

Maybe if I keep praying real hard,

it will some day.

roar #8

She'd known him her entire life
She always dreamed to be his wife
Just his smile made her heart melt
But she never told him how she felt

Forever hoped to have him here
Always dreamed to hold him near
Time passed and they both did grow
But still she never let him know

Perfect chances passed her by
But she just couldn't tell this guy
No matter what she'd ever do...
He still didn't have a clue

But one day her whole world did end
When she heard news from a friend
About the wreck he'd gotten in...
She'd never see his smile again

Now at his grave she softly cries
The tears running from sad eyes
This hurting girl whose heart is broken
All because of love unspoken

its time to do something.

roar #7

I am someone

I walked past a dead face

even though the person was alive

I saw my eyes in the mirror

and cried at the sight

I looked at a person

I didnt know

and I met a friend

I got heads to turn

when I walked past

I learned a lot about myself

when I lost a new friend

I cried every tear in my body

when I thought about love

I got hit bad

then got back in the ring

I climbed a mountain of rocks

and saw an eagle fly over- head

I heard terrible things about myself

when no one thought I was listening

I realized I was strong

when I didn¹t cry when it hurt

I found out who I was

when I was with someone else

I thought I was lost forever

when a friend found me

I held a life in my hand

and it was my own

I was a pawn in someone else's game

so I surrendered to a brook

I walked the fine line between surviving

and not wanting to survive

I still am

I am someone

roar #5

My garden in spring is GRAY, old,
all its flowers GONE and DRY,
but I know the name of each one
so DEAD today under the sun light.

Here is SOLITUDE, hiding always,
rejection made it so very shy,
leaning to and inside the shadow
of a tall SORROW that will not die.

Like a leftover pillar of the ruins
of a forgotten temple in the past
PAIN, embodied in a black cactus
with mean thorns and not a life.

REGRETS grows here, everywhere,
much as an unwanted weed alike, s
ucking from the earth its power
until all are made of unfertile sand.

SINS are the peripheral stones of
a garden that no rain, nor any man
could wake up to a former splendor
of colorful and perfumed plants.

Because the salvia of ENVY trees s
pitting "it" around for a long time,
killed the waiting seed in the ground
making place for plenty of darker ANGST.

DESPERATION shows no flowers
but it gives a stench of FEARS grants,
that''s not even wanted by PARANOIA
but just so in love with SUICIDE.

Don’t come to my garden if you are
one of those people believing in SMILES
and think that TEARS nurture,
because everything DIES in this garden of mine.

roar #4

I write this letter to you

to make up for the other two.

Although I think you do not exist,

I have no choice I must persist.

for I have a favor to ask

to help me forget my distant past

those rash and unforgettable times

in this life, full of lies

for whenever I attempt to close my eyes

thoughts of the endless dreamer arise

showing me her heaven in my mind

and the people that would suffer if I were to die...

as feelings begin to burst out of this letter

might as well close it,

aint got nothing better to do in this life,

just full of misery

this isn't a letter it's a piece of history

I'll just close this heart from my life,

until the day it is opened by The Creator.

roar #3

just felt like roaring abt my beloved friends... mali and dora.

time is NEVER a justified measure of the depth of friendship, for we have defeated it, and it can no longer be a instrument to calculate the strength of our bond..

for my two special girls,

thanks for the inspiration to even set this blog up... ;) thanks for all the times we have shared so far, all the meetings, outings, shoppings, laughs, giggles, quarrels, bullies, msn chats, etc etc.. here's a special poem out for you two, malindra and dora, my angels...

I'll be there,
When you feel lonely and frightened
When you need help with something
When you feel hopeless
I'll be there,
When you feel betrayed by someone you trusted
When you feel broken hearted
When you are in difficult times
I'll be there,
When you fall
When you need a hug
When you need some love
I'll be there,
No matter what happens
I'll be there.

hugs,
Rina

roar #2

someone spoke of your death, my dear friend, which is why i put your issue as the starting post... when someone spoke of your death, it brought me tears, and i remember how often we ran the sun down together with our talks... somewhere you have long been dust but your nighingales live on..

Though the Death World claws at everything, it will not touch them....

roar #1

my friend,

Atrial myxoma got you.. damn it.. you had beat it for 7 years, at least.. how did it come back? why all the pain again? and you - such a fighter, you fought me over and over with tears, word and promises.. you fought for me with honesty and the light so bright, it burst my heart. you're at peace now and finally no more battles, just light from within a flickering candle in the dark burns with you.